I first came to terms with it maybe less than a handful of years ago but looking back on my past I may have always been?

I generally got alot better with boys and had a pretty crude and loud sense of humor. I would often say to my fam “I’m not a girl” when people or my fam said i didn’t/should act more lady like. and i had major shifts in days where i either wanted to present super mascu, super fem, or be seen as neither (mostly this one) when i was around people.